My final WTF moment was a culmination of previous moments and thoughts, those previous thoughts all submerged obediently.
- the generation teaching which changed & became "over-lapping"
- the acceptability of blood fractions
- reporting field service time
- feeling like you're on a constant treadmill, never good enough or doing enough
- the elders "going beyond the things written"
- and finally, the WTF culmination moment:
I was going to give the book, "My Book of Bible Stories" to my little grandchildren (who, thank goodness, were NOT being raised as JWs!). I looked at the book through their little eyes and was shocked. So many scary, frightening pictures! So much blood, so much violence!! Who could put out and approve such a book for little children?? When I realized that the governing body would have to approve this book, it stunned me. I also knew that most of the GB did not even have children of their own, yet here they were putting out a nightmarish book which would terrorize children. How could a book such as this make children want to draw close to God?? I wish I had seen this with my own little children.
When I began questioning the wisdom of the GB, when I began doubting them, it all began to fall apart. I started to see the WTS as another man-made, man-led religion, and the house of cards began to fall down. It gave me courage to read Ray Franz's books, and that was the end of it for me.